Today Im going to be me.

We spend much of our life's tyring to better ourselves, impress someone or change something. I don't care who says "Well I don't" Because whoever you are you know that there has been a time, point in your life that you have done this. Maybe it was when you was a teen ( we all did this as teenagers ) or maybe it was that last job interview you had. COME ON DO WE ALL SPEAK AS POSH AS WE DID WHEN METING THE NEW BOSS? Can you see what I'm saying? I find as we grow older into an adult we begin to think sod it if they can't except me as I am then bad luck, walk away. This statement really reveres to relationships ( well for me it does and if you think about it harder you will probably find it does you to! ) When we first meet that oh so special person that gives us the butterflies we do indeed act in a different way. WELL TO AN EXTENT! We never really show the real complete me do we ? That will always come with time. Half the time we don't even know we are doing it. That's why it's called getting to now someone, or people say do you know the real he/she ? It's just the way us as humans are. I love it when you hear someone say "OMG he wasn't like that when I meet him or I would of run a mile!" News flash! Of course he didn't walk around saying five years down the line i will show you the prick in me! ( that sounded wrong and some what rude lol ) Also we need to remember with each and every stage in life we change, not completely but to some degree we change!  I used to like partying every weekend and with it I would become totally drunk! Now I rarely get the chance for a good night out and can't remember the last time I even had a drink. Children change you! The last time I was out I had a great time but had it sober. No I wasn't driving but the fault of a hungover with two screaming children put me right off lol. 

If we are not acting somehow not ourselves then we are trying to change something about ourselves! I know this is something most woman can relate to, Men to I agree but being a woman I know that at sometime through our life's maybe it's once a month when we have a period or in our teenage years we discover something we don't like or just fell could use a little improvement. Being someone with OCD this is something easy for me to say yer I really can relate to that. I honestly spent half if not 3/4 of my 26 years trying to change or better something about myself. At the age of 12 I did in fact end up in hospital, My OCD was hard and I was having some food issues ( silly ways I tyred to stay thin ) that it all become to much and I took a lot of pills, panicked and ended up having to tell all to a councillor:( I try to always tell my princess how pretty and perfect she is ) I tell both my kids you are who you are never hide from it or be ashamed of who you are. I need to tell my son this often. Having Aspergers ( A type of autism on the autistic spectrum ) Other children have been known to be nasty taking the mick out his love of trains and buses. Maybe it's lucky he has this obsessed interest as a child with ASD because he does not become as upset about these remakes as would his sister or any other child that is not on the spectrum. 

Next time you have something important to attend someone to meet who needs impressing then tell yourself that today I'm going to be me. I bet this way thinks will go a whole lot smoother. TRUST ME.