WOMEN AND SIZE

Today us as women are so completely obsessed with our weight. It's sad but so very true, because yes I'm just as bad, I'm one of them many obsessed women. It's so sad that many of us girls fell the need to be a certain weight before we are comfortable, even then we are not happy. Are we ever happy with the way we look ?

The reason I find myself writing this is because of a recent conversation with a close friend of mine. You see she has a friend that yes I know but not extremely well. She is around 30 weeks pregnant. She doesn't look like she is reason being is because she has an eating disorder. Yes I understand this because I myself went through this in my teens when my OCD was at it's worse. But god it makes me so angry as I recently lost a baby at 11 weeks pregnant. I would of been 33 weeks now, just 3 weeks a head of her :(

I look at young girls today and think god what chance have they got? Some girls are so scared of the word fat! And why? Because that's the way it is today. THIN IS IN AND ALWAYS HAS BEEN. As a woman we have more control, but still it's hard. WHY CAN'T WE JUST LOVE OURSELVES ?  My daughter is six and I hope she never fells that way. I have heard that girls this young are already worrying about there size. I'm forever telling my princess she is gorgeous, because she is:)

Will women ever win the battle ?

Today Im going to be me.

We spend much of our life's tyring to better ourselves, impress someone or change something. I don't care who says "Well I don't" Because whoever you are you know that there has been a time, point in your life that you have done this. Maybe it was when you was a teen ( we all did this as teenagers ) or maybe it was that last job interview you had. COME ON DO WE ALL SPEAK AS POSH AS WE DID WHEN METING THE NEW BOSS? Can you see what I'm saying? I find as we grow older into an adult we begin to think sod it if they can't except me as I am then bad luck, walk away. This statement really reveres to relationships ( well for me it does and if you think about it harder you will probably find it does you to! ) When we first meet that oh so special person that gives us the butterflies we do indeed act in a different way. WELL TO AN EXTENT! We never really show the real complete me do we ? That will always come with time. Half the time we don't even know we are doing it. That's why it's called getting to now someone, or people say do you know the real he/she ? It's just the way us as humans are. I love it when you hear someone say "OMG he wasn't like that when I meet him or I would of run a mile!" News flash! Of course he didn't walk around saying five years down the line i will show you the prick in me! ( that sounded wrong and some what rude lol ) Also we need to remember with each and every stage in life we change, not completely but to some degree we change!  I used to like partying every weekend and with it I would become totally drunk! Now I rarely get the chance for a good night out and can't remember the last time I even had a drink. Children change you! The last time I was out I had a great time but had it sober. No I wasn't driving but the fault of a hungover with two screaming children put me right off lol. 

If we are not acting somehow not ourselves then we are trying to change something about ourselves! I know this is something most woman can relate to, Men to I agree but being a woman I know that at sometime through our life's maybe it's once a month when we have a period or in our teenage years we discover something we don't like or just fell could use a little improvement. Being someone with OCD this is something easy for me to say yer I really can relate to that. I honestly spent half if not 3/4 of my 26 years trying to change or better something about myself. At the age of 12 I did in fact end up in hospital, My OCD was hard and I was having some food issues ( silly ways I tyred to stay thin ) that it all become to much and I took a lot of pills, panicked and ended up having to tell all to a councillor:( I try to always tell my princess how pretty and perfect she is ) I tell both my kids you are who you are never hide from it or be ashamed of who you are. I need to tell my son this often. Having Aspergers ( A type of autism on the autistic spectrum ) Other children have been known to be nasty taking the mick out his love of trains and buses. Maybe it's lucky he has this obsessed interest as a child with ASD because he does not become as upset about these remakes as would his sister or any other child that is not on the spectrum. 

Next time you have something important to attend someone to meet who needs impressing then tell yourself that today I'm going to be me. I bet this way thinks will go a whole lot smoother. TRUST ME.

IT'S ALL IN THE NAME

Great I have now created a blogspot blog, and looking forward to using it.
First let me explain why I decided to name the blog Don't look twice! Well as this blog is focused around different aspects of physiology and the interest I have developed with the mind and mental health, I wanted to give it a name that I can really relate to. Don't look twice is that name! As a young child growing up I developed a condition known to many. OCD.
This was something that my son who is on the autistic spectrum can also relate to. All through he has a much milder form which I guess is really part of the Aspergers. Well I had and suppose still do a great fear of fire. I used to find myself up and down of a night unable to sleep as I felt the need to repeatedly check and count the plug sockets. It used to kill me having to leave the freezer plugged in and after the 8th trip back downstairs I would make the decision to unplug it.
God as you can probably guess I would make my mother crazy. I remember her begging me to not get up and do it. She would give it all she had trying to explain to me that the freezer was designed to be plugged in. I would get in bed and prey I fell asleep before she came up to bed but if I didn't them I would not be able to help the compulsion within me' yes I would unplug it yet again. My poor mum was forever replacing the defrosted food! It must of cost her a small fortune. I had many trips to the doctor and went through loads of therapies but it only seemed to get better in adulthood. It only really shows itself when I'm down or really stressed. Yes I still do the small things but on the whole it's under control.

So you see don't look twice is something I would tell myself when I felt the need to act out my compulsions. I guess it's the would that helped me onto that big old road to recovery, that many of us know for different reason. So OCD will be just one of the many subjects touched on within this blog, ASD, depression and eating disorders are just a few more. I do hope you will all follow me in the journey of the creation of what I hope to be a wonderful blog' DON'T LOOK TWICE.